The first week

I've made it through the first week of work. SO far everything is good. I'm not really involved in a lot of projects right now and I've still got training to do, but at least I'm not brand new anymore. It's never fun being the new gal. It wasn't fun in elementary school and it's not fun now in the workplace. Everyone at the company has been super nice and welcoming.

This weekend Matt and I are heading to Orlando on Saturday for Star Wars weekends at Hollywood Studios. It's a pretty neat special event where all the Star Wars characters are there and they have a parade led by storm troopers. Matt and I are geeky and we will thoroughly enjoy taking pictures and seeing all the characters.

Should be a busy weekend. I'm in the market for a new laptop, my old one keeps burning out, overheating and shutting itself off. This makes me sad. Any advice on a new one?

I got a job!

So happy to announce that as of Monday I will officially be employed in Tampa. I start work with Progressus Therapy in their marketing department as an Communications and RFP Specialist. I'm excited, nervous, thankful and tons of other emotions all put together right now. Progressus Therapy is a company that hires and places Speech Therapists, Physical Therapists and other therapists in school districts to work with students. This company seems like a good fit for me and I'm excited about the work I'll be doing. I'll describe my job description more in depth as I go along. A lot of people have asked me what I'll be doing and right now it's hard to explain, but I hope as I work there I'll be able to be a little clearer about my duties.

I'm so ready for our lives to return to what we call "normal". Going to work, coming home, fixing supper, etc. I am so thankful for this month off. I was able to visit Alabama for an entire week, go to Orlando with Matt's family, and be home during the day enough to get tired of it and be ready to go back to work. I never thought I'd be ready to work like I am now. ;-) I'm so fortunate to have been blessed with all the opportunities I prayed for. As I said before, it was a leap of faith to quit my job in Tallahassee and move down here without one, but God took care of us as he always has and always will.

Just wanted to share my good news. I have a feeling that I'll be able to get back on a better blogging schedule too now that I'm back to work. It's a good feeling. I'm going to meet Matt for lunch and comic book shopping. He's refrained from buying them a lot since I've not been working and now he needs to make up for lost time. :-)

Happy Monday

Stevie and Wil, ever vigilant.

Hope everyone has had a wonderful past few weeks. We have been BUSY at the Crockett house. Traveling, friends in town, family vacations and laundry. Hope everyone had a relaxing Memorial Day weekend.

Stay at Home Dog Mom

I'm trying to enjoy my days of being home with no employment. I know a job will come soon enough and then I'll wish I could be home doing exactly what I'm doing now. But, I can't help but feel a little guilty about not having a job. Matt has been wonderfully supportive. It wasn't easy for him to let go and trust that we'd be fine. Moving me down here was certainly a leap of faith into the deep end of a pool.

So now I'm home with Stevie and Wil. They LOVE having me home all the time. They curl up next to me on the couch, beg for treats when I'm fixing my lunch (and usually get them), and just generally seem to bask in my constant attention. Their favorite sleeping perch is on the top of the loveseat in front of the living room window. I guess so they have a good warm place to nap and have a good view of the sidewalk outside in case they need to bark at someone (everyone.)

I'm enjoying apartment life again. We've been utilizing the workout room and the pool. Although I have to pay for laundry now, it's nice to get all of my loads of laundry done in the time it took to do only one at home since I have 6 washers and 6 dryers to choose from.

Tampa is a fun city. It has lots of shopping and fun restaurants. We're enjoying exploring new places and finding new favorites. We've found a pretty tasty sushi restaurant and are looking forward to discovering more places when friends come into town (Yay Vander and Suzy!) It's already feeling like summer down here, and has felt this way for the past few months. I've definitely got to increase my shorts wardrobe (thanks, Momma!) and tank top wardrobe. I'm wearing skirts more than I ever did before because it's so hot outside.

On the job front I've got some good leads, a Dean of a College of Education here in Tampa called last week and wants to meet with me about a job. She's out of town until June, so I'm waiting a few weeks for that. The job I've had 2 interviews for (both went extremely well) will be making a decision next week so please be praying for that. I couldn't have asked for better interviews so I just hope I made a good impression on the folks I talked to. I'm doing my best not to worry about it too much and to leave it all up to God. His plan is best anyway. :-)

I'll be posting pictures soon of my trip home to Alabama. A week at home was WONDERFUL. I had time to visit with everyone and never felt like I was rushed. I really felt like I was able to spend quality time with BOTH my families. The only thing that would have made it better is if Matt could have been there with me. He's working extremely hard and making GREAT impressions at work. I'm so proud of him.

Happy Wednesday to all y'all out there! The countdown is on to the weekend!!

In Alabama

Spending a week with family has never been more lovely. I'm in beautiful North Alabama and will be back to attempting to be a better blogger next week.

Until then, enjoy this peony from my Grandmother's yard.

The reason my car is yellow:

Matt and I bought 4 azaleas when we first bought our house two years ago. We didn't get any blooms the first year and only one of the plants bloomed last year. FINALLY this year all four plants bloomed and they are lovely. As much as I'd like to have the house sold. I'm glad we were here to see them in all their glory. To anyone looking for a house in Crawfordville, these beauties are only going to grow and become more lovely!

And the reason I mentioned my car being yellow in the title is, of course, all due to the pollen. You can actually SEE the grains of pollen on these plants. This is also why my nose is running.

Infertility Awareness Week

The week of April 24th through May 1st is Infertility Awareness Week. This is something that is very personal to me and I wanted to mention it on the ol' blog. I found this poem over a year ago and I think it really describes infertility from someone who knows:

The robber of childhood dreams, The thief of wifely desires, The take of the assumed. Cry, scream, yell, Feel alone even with the arms of your husband around you. The monthly reminder, The fallen hopes. Dreams gone, Shattered like a fragile glass. The ever-empty arms that ache and hurt with the sounds of children laughing. The hidden pain at baby showers, The ignorance of people asking you, "When is your turn?" The failure. The child who walks by looking like the one you dream of, long to hold. The ever-present deep knife in your heart. Trusting that He will never leave us or forsake us Knowing that "[Nothing] will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus" (Romans 8:39 NIV) Believing that "I can do everything through Him who gives me strength" (Philippians 4:13 NIV) Hoping that "You and I may be mutually encouraged by each other's faith" (Romans 1:11 NIV)

©2010 A ministry of Bethany Christian Services

I'm not really comfortable sharing my journey just yet. I guess I want to wait for my happy ending before I tell the tale. :-) Because I know I'll have one. I really just wanted to raise awareness for something that is important to me. Something I know effects a lot of couples. I think it's fitting that they scheduled this awareness week to be held just before Mother's day, which can be a very difficult holiday for folks who are still waiting.

I love the verses that are mentioned in that poem because these are the verses that help me every day. In ALL aspects of my life (job, moving, house, etc.)

Mommies: Be thankful for your babies every single day even the bad days and Mommy wannabes: Our time is coming!

Things I'm loving:

Today feels like a day for a list. A list of things I am currently loving:

1. Your Love is My Drug by Ke$ha. Love this song.

2. Saturday Night Live on Hulu. I can watch skits over and over and still crack up. Here's one of my favorites:

3. Genius on iTunes. Creates a cool playlist for me while I'm working around the house.

4. Zoning out on the treadmill. Love that my phone is also an mp3 player.

5. Books on CD for those drives to Tampa.

6. Mabel's House - one of my blog friends. She has gorgeous photos and amazing insights. She'll be a famous writer someday. Well she practically already is with her blog.

7. The Anthropologie Vernal Festoon Necklace

Ain't she a beaut? Too bad my birthday has passed.

8. Netflix on the Wii. You can watch all of the Netflix instant view movies on your regular TV. Matt and I are addicted. It's such great entertainment. We watch a different episode of Mystery Science Theater 3000 every time I visit Tampa.

9. Taking showers at night and then just using the straightening iron on my hair in the morning. I am not really a morning person. Especially if I don't wake up on my own. Waking up and not having to do the whole washing and drying on my hair routine is wonderful. Why didn't I think of this sooner?

10. The old-school Polaroid camera I just bough on Ebay for a few bucks. The film will cost a little more but it will still be a super fun toy.

Bonfire thoughts

Our friend Chris, who worked with Matt at DOR had a bonfire one weekend. It was so nice to sit outside and chat with friends and watch the fire.

Matt kept his feet warm.

I have been a horrible blogger this month. This blog is sort of a semi-diary for me and this past month has been full of stress, traveling, praying, interviews and just plain being TIRED. So much so that I just really haven't had anything to blog about. I haven't even carried my camera around with me like I should. We have so much going on and are looking forward to being able to tie up some of our loose ends like selling the house and finding me a job in Tampa. We pray about it each night and I will be moving to Tampa at the beginning of May. It's scary to be without a job, but I have full confidence that God will provide for us and we will be fine. I feel sort of weird having this secure feeling when it feels like life is literally swirling around me in confusion, but I'm in the eye of the storm and the sun is shining and I feel really good. Thanks to all of your for your praryers, love and support. They're making a huge difference.

Swimsuit Season

My internet friend Katie over at www.marriageconfessions.com (go visit, she's hilarious) recently posted about the search for the perfect bathing suit. She's been living up north for the past few years even though she grew up in Florida and has just moved to Orlando. I call her my internet friend even though we've never met in person. I don't think we've even emailed, but I comment on her blog and she acknowledged me once on Twitter so by internet standards that makes us buddies.

Anyways, she was lamenting having to try on bathing suits which is something I think ALL women hate. Even if you're a skinny minnie. No one likes trying on a suit and trying to visualize what it looks like on without panties underneath. (I understand the purpose for wearing underwear when you try suits on but that doesn't mean I have to find it comfortable. And that little sticker in the crotch isn't fooling anyone.)

She was also worrying about which suit was best for her. One that would accentuate her positive and eliminate the negatives. So I had to share a secret that has made me feel SO SO much better about my body in a bathing suit. I gained this confidence after Matt and I made our first visit to a Disney water park. I was wearing a tankini and feeling a little self conscious about all the skin I felt I was showing. Within minutes of walking in those fears disappeared. I almost felt OVER dressed in a tankini. Tons of tourists and vacationers were walking around, floating around and sliding down water slides in miniscule bathing suits. Bikinis and speedos were all around and I can assure you not one of the folks wearing them was a Sports Illustrated cover model. Not even close. These people had ALL body types. I'm not saying there was any indecency. No one's unmentionables were showing (though I did see a bit more "cheek" than normal.)

The point for me was that these folks didn't care what other people thought of them. They were just excited to be on a vacation with their families at DisneyWorld. They were enjoying the sun, the water, the sights, the sounds, their kids, their friends, their grandmas, their pawpaws and everything that comes with a family vacation. They laughed, joked and were completely comfortable in their skin, even if some of it jiggled or hung out a little bit. I quickly learned that no one was looking at me. No one cared. I also learned that it was a lot more fun to be comfortable in my skin and run around a water park with Matt than it was to worry about whether my stomach was as flat as it could be or if my love handles were showing if my suit moved up a few inches. Because I was the only one that cared.

So my advice to you folks as bathing suit season approaches. Just be comfortable. And remember the only person that really cares is you. Don't let worrying how you look distract you from enjoying your time in the pool, on the river or at the beach with you loved ones.

and HAPPY SWIMSUIT SHOPPING!

(Katie, if you read this....the good news is that once you find some good bathing suits, they'll last you a few years and you won't have to go back and try anymore on for a while! Also - grab some good solid color tankini bottoms and then just mix and match different tops. Gives you twice as many bathing suits and lots of choices. I have about 3 black bottoms and 6 or 7 tops to mix with them.)